Social Anxiety

I’m pretty sure that everybody I know has been affected somehow by social anxiety. Whether it be going to a party and not knowing anyone there or attending a church that you never attended before. No matter what the case, social anxiety is something that happens in society but is rarely ever talked about. And with social anxiety, once you add child loss in to the mixture of things, it starts to become a debilitating thing. Starts to become, A monster. Your world is only as large as your house. And then it begins to get smaller and smaller. You begin to relive the day that your child died over and over again. And without being able to talk about it with somebody else who understands it or eve

Jesus Forgive Me

On the days that I can’t gather enough energy to get out of bed, Jesus forgive me. On the days that all I want to do is sleep- Jesus forgive me. Some days hurt so badly that I think about death- Jesus forgive me. On the days that I get so angry at You for taking my child, Jesus forgive me. And the days that I struggle to see Your light- Please, Jesus. Forgive me. When I curse and stomp my feet. Like a tantruming child. Jesus. Forgive me. On the days that I surrender this pain to You on the cross, At Your feet, and just hours later, Pick it up again. Jesus, forgive me. On the days that I can’t help but feel darkness surrounding me. Engulfing me. Forgive me, Jesus. For not knowing You’re there